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Stormy Weather
By Afril
(Cl) 2000 - GFA

The rain fell on the window, streaking it like the tears that wouldn't come. I
put my paw to it, feeling the wind lashing the air, the drops of moisture that
someplace were falling on my Lover.. Make that Ex-Lover. I closed my eyes and
replayed the last scene in my mind.. My ears twitched, my paw trembled as I
heard his voice again.. I almost looked up, so real it seems. Standing, I put
my coat on and stepped out into the 'Weather', as others call it. Splashing the
puddles with my feet, I remember how much you used to like doing this - How You
loved to watch 'Singing in the Rain.'

Dammit! How could you do this to me? I can see us kissing beside the flower
shop, going to our favorite restaurant - That I Don't Dare go back to lest I
see you.. Because I know if I did I would break down. I would fall to my knees
and beg... For all the good it would do. You are gone.. I have to face it. The
walk back is bleaker than the gray skies above me. "Damn You!" Even now, I have
to stop and hang my coat up in the bathroom so it won't leave puddles on the
floor. Your floor.. No - Our Floor. The floor we made love on and drank on and
rolled around on. The phone rings. A friend who has heard and gives sympathy. I
am sure he means well but right now I don't want to hear it.

What is it about furs on the rebound? We are Easy because we want to Hurt our
Exes? We are Fast because we don't want to be alone again? Well, I for one have
No intentions of running around to the bars or to friends. At least not yet. I
just wish Everything didn't remind me of him.. "You Bastard.." So beautiful..
His body was beautiful, His soul was beautiful. His Damn Eyes were beautiful..

I look at the picture on the dresser I have tried a hundred times to take down.
To toss in a drawer or to throw out. Instead I pick it up and look at My Love's
face.. "Even your Funeral was beautiful.."

The clouds part and a single shaft of sunlight comes in to dance on the floor -
His Floor. Clasping the picture to my chest, my head falls and the tears
finally come.

The End